So what happen next

Didnt know how hard to be Libra
yep Libra...a sign of scale...where the person never know what is the best should do

I believe i'm pathetic libra where i cudnt make sure either my decision is good or not
I cudnt stop thinking that Me making a wrong decision when something not happen like it suppose to be

I'm talking about job environment....just want to give the best but somehow it's not right... That's not right because someone say so.... i try to gave a lead but that not giving any impression at all...
and im losing my faith....

I ever trying to be a good friend,... but as one of my friend said : " There is almost always one person that cares too much, and one that doesn't care enough.....YEP.... it happen twice if i calculate in past 6 years ago...and the last one happen few days ago...i mean yesterday hahaha my Question : Do i make something wrong so you ignore me?


I failed to manage my feeling and it keep up and down... and made me weak... day and day.....

Valentine.... as the day you ask me to

Having a lot of interest to ELMO and suddenly you got Valentine ticket to have breakfast with ELMO.... akkhh I love ELMO on that day 15 Feb 2014 ....i spend all day on Universal Studio in Singapore..... and i love how i end the day...when you ask me to.... and i said yes :)

My 28th bday

15 minute to 12am and I'll be 28 and until now i still working and sudenlly I feel like I don't want to have bday tommorow since I have full day meeting until midnite. And I can not have my party with my best friend at the day.

Yeah there will be online presentation for new TVC and I should cancel my appointment with all my friend.
And I dont know why i feel that my friend doesnt support to re schedule the party. Damn I feel like they dont like to be there in other day after my day... I put status in Plurk, I ask with YM, I dont have any support answer. So yes, this will be my bad bday ever. No boyfriend and no friend. Do I still have a friend? Lately, I feel they dont like me anymore or I feel no more bond with them. I guess it happen because we are not in the same office anymore. Anyway, its only my feeling. Usually it happen when I have bad day. Hmmm really hope there will be something that can make me smile tommorow

About to let it go

It's been a year, a year without my dream.
I have to let you go
Yes I have to...
I have to see you happy even without me beside you

I believe my dream over you, already done by time goes by.
Use to have the ring as a symbol of our dream
With your name on it.

But its only a dream, dream that can not comes true

It's finished now, I have new dream, new opportunity to love and be loved. Thank you for 5 years happiness. I've lost my ring and also release the love for your happiness.

The day me melted...

Thank you thank you so much....

Me melted, me can feel it, me feels very happy

Here are some snap shot.... 

First place, coffee shop, cozy place to drink a cup of chocolate in the middle of the rain, with wifi of course. Little conversation about a place to go, reading some magazine with MJ song "ure not alone" surround us.

After a little chit chat in the coffee shop, its dinner time.

 

The best part of the journey are those flower...melted with smile in my face. Although I have to cut my finger when I have to make those flowers fit to the Vase

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XOXO dear.. guess where are this place??.....

I am good in the broken heart series

Look what I have found...
Some quote for broken heart...
I took some of them and put here...I took for one reason...its happen to me...

To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.
Bess Myerson

The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.
Anonymous

I love to shop after a bad relationship. I don't know. I buy a new outfit and it makes me feel better. It just does. Sometimes I see a really great outfit, I'll break up with someone on purpose.
Rita Rudner


Well I am not suppose to read those stupid quote coz just make me very awful now...

I need help now...googling for some inspirations quote....

Damn I am good..look i found one quote:

No one should negotiate their dreams. Dreams must be free to flee and fly high. No government, no legislature, has a right to limit your dreams. You should never agree to surrender your dreams.
Rev. Jesse Jackson

See maybe I should have more dream...dreamer don't stop dream when something ruined her dream...

Michael Buble, Haven't met you yet

Ow ow...masih gara-gara perjalanan di jogja..nemu lagu asik nih




Nice song like it.....

Asking for Forgiveness

I know I was wrong
I know I cant took back my word
I know I'm hurting you by forcing you to take that decision
I know it will not be the same again

The day after

I saw your name everywhere I go

I saw you face every things I do...

Ehmm so I am desperate ...maybe...

well its the consequence of asking you not to give me more pain.

Maybe I was wrong, all pain that you already gave me before...kind a miss it...because I miss you so much

Grey Sky Morning in December

Dear Sunshine,


Thank you so much for giving me the best thing in my life. Never had the feeling like this before. 
You teach me how to love again and I do love you, even I love you more than before and more than 5 years. I only need few month to have a lot love like this. Can't stop thinking of you all day after last nite. Yeah you choose Big Bad Storm than me. I believe because earth can't reach sunshine. And storm can do that easier. I'm just nobody now. 

Sunshine and you

Just Found a nice song from my very best friend Nina Rizky Bahctiar, really want to dedicate this song to someone who already gave me happiness lately. Maybe I only can make you as Private Collections but guess what ... you always make my day bright as sunshine does.



You are my sunshine
My only sunshine.
You make me happy
When skies are grey.
You'll never know, dear,
How much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away

The other night, dear,
As I lay sleeping
I dream I held you in my arms.
When I awoke, dear,
I was mistaken
And I hung my head and cried.

Dedicated to someone: Hot Swimming Pool

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

This song is hollow on my last 3 day...it happen and complicated I guess